CONFORM, CONFORM CONFORM!!!!!!

Lately everywhere I turn there is someone more or less yelling in my face that I must conform! Well I stand before all those who have come and all those who are still yet to come, and I very loudly yell back in your face...FUCK YOU!!!!

It has been a year now since my "awakening" and I know and see myself much more clearly each and every day. I am no longer that prisoner being bound by "the man" or any other who wish to bring me to my knees and conform to what they believe is the "right" way. Whether it be how I should act, think or feel. I am my own unique being and I realize now that for most of my life I have been held captive by those trying to conform me. No longer will I stand quietly by and allow them to try to hold control over me.

I look back into my past and see that even as a mere child I realized that there was something dreadfully wrong with what these demons were trying to do to me. As a child though you look for guidance from those whom you want to believe have their act together, when in all reality they don't! They point the finger at you and say you are out of control. I say to them...yes, I am out of control! I refuse to ever be in someone else control again.

What right does another have to tell someone how they should act, think or feel? I find that if I am not bringing harm to anyone in my actions then what business is it of anyone to try to conform me into any other actions than my own? Where exactly does one come by this superior power in telling me how I should think? Do I not possess a mind of my own? Yes I do! As far as my feelings go, there is no one who knows what I feel.

I wake up some days asking why it is that I must do what I must to acquire a piece of paper in order for me to do what it is that I already know how and what to do. Does this mean that I am conforming? In my eyes, no I am not. I am just pacifying the idiots who like to think that they have control over me. That is why while I am working towards obtaining said piece of paper I continually do what it is that I have been placed here to do.

You may argue over the lack of payment for my services. I will gladly argue back that I unlike you do not need monetary rewards. I receive payment for my services in many different ways. Whether it be with another providing me with a service that I might be in need of or just simply a sincere hug.

Where are the days when one simply traded services. Greed is now all that lines the pockets of so many. This in return has lead to far too many wars with far too many lives destroyed. Until those who desire greed above all else cease, we will never find peace among us.

This in itself is the most painful thing to not only my heart but my soul. This is my greatest fear! Nothing would make my life more complete than to see peace. I am no fool however and I do realize that I will most likely never see it with these eyes I possess now. My only hope is that it will come in time for the next generation. If the control freaks of this world will just back off and allow the children of this world to be their individual selves we may just have that hope become a reality.

One of these days you will look up and you will find me standing atop of a building and I will be standing side by side with those children and I will be screaming with not only my voice but my very soul....CONFORM, I THINK NOT!!!!!!!

Latest Rant

Tonight I attended a meeting in which I heard and saw things that only collaborate what I have been trying to get through to people all along. We are not just individuals, but much more than that. We are all a part of a much greater picture.  We are all connected not to just one another but to everything! The time has come for people to wake up and realize that they are not alone. The power of one can be very powerful indeed. Something I heard tonight rang true...

When there is a standing ovation it always starts with just one person taking that first step and standing up alone. Funny thing is after that one person there are many who follow. So you see by just one person taking that first step others will follow. 

I also found that when we are by ourselves we tend to believe that we are alone in our thoughts and that no one can possible feel as we do. However when you sit down with a group of people and start discussing things you come to find that you are not alone in the way you think or feel. There are others with the same feelings and thoughts as your own. We have been raised in a society that leads us to these feelings of loneliness.  I for one feel that this is just a way for the man to place control over us. It is the same as with education. Now before I continue with what I am about to say let me include this one thing, I am not against education as it is meant to be as apart of our lives. What I do believe is that education as it is enforced upon us is just a way for the man from keeping us from allowing us to express who we truly are as individuals. We all start out with our own unique individuality only to be reprogrammed so to speak. Once we enter into school age we are placed into institutional prisons that teach us that we are to think, feel and obey how the man wants us to.  We are never suppose to ask those questions. Here lies the problem. Why should we conform? Who are they to tell us that what and how we think is wrong? 

I have two granddaughters and a nephew who are very dear to my heart. These children never cease to amaze me with just how much they do get it. It goes to show that what I have believed about children all along is to be true. It is them that we can learn so much from. They come to us with their eyes wide open and then there are those among us who want to close their eyes. These are the ones who in my honest opinion have great fears. I for one do not have those fears. I see these children as our hope. They are by far more intelligent than those who are trying to stop them. It is their future that we are destroying, should they not have some say in how things are done? You stop and say to me that they are but mere children, what can they possibly know? I say to you step back and take a deep look into your soul, do you not see yourself at a time when you were that child?  What happened to that child? He or she is still there. You just have to dig a little deeper to find yourself and break the chains that have held you hostage for far too long!

I end this rant simply by asking one thing of you...next time you think or feel that you can not do anything to make a difference, thin k again. Be that one person who takes that first step. If I have not taken it before you I will surely be the next one following your step. Together we not only can but will make a difference. I am not doing the things that I do for myself. I do everything for our future generations. I want them to be able to live in a world that is not only green and beautiful but a world of peace. That is my purpose for being here, to make sure I do everything possible to make that happen.

Memorial Day Thoughts

As I sit here early on this Memorial Day morning, preparing to attend our local Memorial Day parade and festivities, I cannot help but wonder why we ever had to designate a day for our loved ones who have lost their lives in battles and wars. I personally wish that we had more sense as a human race to realize that there is nothing, and yes I do mean nothing, so important in this world that we must find ourselves not only fighting over it but, killing one another as well.

When will we wake the f*^k up and realize that we are all in this together and that we are all connected to one another, regardless of our age, sex, or race. Do we all not have loved ones, fathers, mothers, children and so on? Do we not all want the same things for our loved ones, love, happiness, joy and peace? 

We all know that our planet is in a turmoil. Maybe it is as simple as our great Mother trying to get our attention and open our eyes to finally see that we are all the same even though we are different. Do we not all share the same planet? In killing ourselves we are also killing Her! 

There are so many times when I just want to slap people to wake them up to see with their own eyes what is truly going on around them and to show them that they CAN make a difference by not using violence to solve their problems. Many times I have found myself just wanting to go to a rooftop and scream at the top of my lungs to all those around me to simply...WAKE THE F&*K UP!!!!! Society however would lock me up and label me as a crazy person. I ask you, is it I who is the crazy one really? 

I leave you with this one final wish, prayer, hope...take the person near you and simply shake their hand, give them a hug or just smile at them and let them know that you care, that they are as important as yourself. Just be kind to one another and maybe, just maybe one day we will all wake up and we can create a new holiday...PEACE DAY!!!

Craziness

It just amazes me each and every day how some people just either seem to be totally brainless/clueless. There is not a day that goes by that I encounter someone who blows me away with how lost and unaware they really are to all that is around them and how they are connected to it all. Sometimes I just want to get on top of a building and scream at the top of my lungs...

WAKE THE F*&K UP!!!!!!!

Losing a Piece of Yourself

The time has arrived that I have been fearing for sometime now. My youngest son was deployed last night for Iraq. I have had 19 years to prepare myself for this day but let me tell you that all the preparing in the world does not come close to getting you ready for this day. I feel as if a piece of myself has been ripped from my very soul. What makes this situation even harder to deal with is knowing that my son does not want to be where he is going because he does not feel that the reasons are good ones. I am not only concerned for his life but for his state of mind as well. 

How is it that there are some of us that can see the much bigger picture and realize that fighting wars is not the answer? When will others wake up and see that we are all a part of one another and that by harming others we are harming ourselves in the process? Until that day we will not see a world that I so dream of seeing. A world of peace and harmony. 

I leave you today with much blessings and love being sent from me to you. Feel the love and pass it along, including to the stranger you meet on the street.

Peace!

Feelings of the Day

Here are some of my thoughts for today. Feel free to leave a comment. 

I sit here as the day is coming to yet another end and my wondering mind once again leads me to thoughts of how we live our lives. Some think that I am a dreamer because I dream of a day when we will live in a world of peace. I ask, if not for those of us who do have dreams where would some of us be now?

There are three souls which are no longer a part of this physical world whose lives, dreams and insights have made a great difference to me throughout my own life. Jesus, Martin Luther King, Jr., and John Lennon. They may not physically be present any longer but their spirits remain among us each and every day. They were three very special souls whom each had a message not unlike one another. Yet the world as we know it was not ready for the message that they had and in which they tried to deliver. 

I wake each and every day living my life according to their message. I go about spreading love and peace to all who enter into my presence and can only hope that each soul that comes in contact with me walks away with a small piece of my offering and passes it on. As the saying goes, you have to plant a seed before the tree will grow. That is what I do while traveling on my journey. Plant a little seed each day and wait for the forest of enlightenment to grow. 

What a wonderful world it will be!!!!

Waking Up

I have begun this blog only in my deepest hopes of reaching other like minded beings that have woke up and are now trying to help others out there among us to just WAKE UP!

My hopes are that you not think of me as some ranting lunatic but can see the bigger picture that I am trying to help you open your eyes and mind to.

Come along with me on this journey and by all means speak freely!